L'agent de voyage

Soon i shall be embarking upon a journey too long, spanning a time too short. To a land i wish were nearer.

I have agonized over it for the last three weeks. But i am calm now. On the surface at least.

I wonder why i canceled the ticket i booked over the internet and went back to l'agent de voyage. While i am perfectly capable of playing the e-game, it felt safe to have a mediator for this travel. A soothing voice.

Hmm. I suppose that's what god is to some people. L'agent de voyage to a faraway land. "The undiscovered country from whose bourn no traveler returns". For a trip we are all destined to, yet afraid to make, his is the voice of reassurance. Don't worry, you will be taken care of. I will sort it out with the airlines, there will be hotel and even food if the layover is too long. You will be home and hopefully everything will be ok.

I am an atheist. Je ne crois pas en Dieu. Non. Plutôt en la bonté qu'il y a en chaque personne. Then why is it not measuring up, to the lim-sup for the humankind? Eh, don't ask me, i dunno! I suppose it's a price i pay for being cognizant. There is no voice for me.

I am going to see my dad.
Perhaps for one last time. But i am not ready for that.
I will never be ready for that.

Wish me luck. I am going to bring him back home.