Who am i tonight

I was gonna write something deep, lol, something that was triggered by the poet's commencement speech as well as the green river killer docudrama i watched last night; about oppression and three victim sets, but seemingly I have lost that train of thought.

Hmm.

Instead let's muse on the eight shades of a woman in love, and figure out which color i am close to tonight. Even though a nayika (heroine) can be classified into 360 fine shades based on the particular combination of rasas (emotions) she expresses, mainly there are 8 shades for all practical purposes (such as keeping me less dizzy!) from what i remember from my Sanskrit studies.

(1) the Abhisarika
yumm, my fav one, she is on her way to meet her beloved, nothing dares stand in her path, husband, in-laws or dark stormy night.

(2) the Basak Sajika
All decked up, painstakingly so, for many hours and waiting for her beloved, pototi pototre bicholito-potre shonkito bhabodupojanom...a sound of mere leaf drop seems like his footstep and raises her hope.

(3) the Utkanthita
The distressed; every waking moment is consumed with the thought of her beloved.

(4) the Bipralabdha
Ah, the pensive heroine; the deepest shade and also the inspiration to many poems.

(5) the Khandita
The jilted, oh boy, you bad bad man, get ready for some serious thorn-pricks, can anyone say SATC! (um, movie version)

(6) the Kalhantarita
The after fight heroine, yumm again, rage followed by pangs of yearning, gearing up for great make-up sex.

(7) the Proshitbhatrika
The lonely wife missing her husband; eek, i have no idea, this is anticlimactic.

(8) the Swadhinbhatrika
The assured one; whose beloved is completely enamored by her. Object of every woman's envy.

Ok, i found my shade, but won't tell ya! Guess away, while i go for some Häagen-Dazs. :)