Let go

Man! Mother Nature does get away with terrible mood swings! Yesterday she pulled off a couple of tornadoes, a dash of flash flood, and three inches of hail, all in a day's work here in S C. But all I got was rain. For days it was scorching hot, then it was terribly windy, and yesterday as i was driving to school, it finally turned into rain. Anger, frustration, and finally pain.

In steps. Almost reluctantly she gave it up. First it was two drops on my windshield. Then a few more. By the time i was walking to my class, it was a full-blown tear-work. Everyone got drenched. Ah, sweet Murphy's law.

I think jacaranda trees are sad too. First wind, then rain. Beautiful violet crowns crushed and scattered. Hopefully they will bloom again.

I got the result of my sleep-study today. Wait till you hear this. All they found was...that I demonstrated an increased level of delta-sleep!! Translated, i proved that i was sleep-deprived. Um, ok, i actually knew that already! Ah, sometimes i think doctors are just so bloody tunnel-visioned and analytically challenged. They should take at least a year of problem solving courses teaching them how to diagnose and treat people, taking into consideration the whole picture that each person depicts. So whatever! I was prescribed some sleep med. Another whatever.

Commencement is upon us in two weeks. I wasn't gonna go, but i have been asked to hood students. Hmm...tiny problem with that. Those of you who don't know me, je suis petite. Oh well, they just have to bow down i guess. lol, a dry lol.

I am writing a damn proposal. I will go back to it now.

Something is bothering me and it's not work.

Sigh. Let go. Like mother Nature. Just let go.

Teach me how.