Living aloft, within and without

Restless.

Cruelty is almost always a result of ignorance. Unbeknownst to them, ignorant people partake in cruel acts. Indeed.

"Maybe people are just very adaptable." To what avail? Tell me?

Do our lies define us more than our truths? For we define our lies whereas our truths define us? Or is it the other way around?

I forget what i want to say. Let's digress voluntarily. Let's discuss Camus.

Okay. First of all i will admit that i was fooled. It's the longest monologue i ever read, and went dizzy trying to understand the contradictory statements; until i realized that i have been had, much like Clamence's companions. With that admission out of my way, cher ami, i will secondly admit that i am guilty of many of the thoughts. But i do not feel guilty for having any of them.

"I protest against the rise of the victimhood and i sincerely pity the able weak. I have been even called an elitist. And guess what, mon cher, i take pride in that! I detach myself from the task i am truly immersed in, for nothing really matters. And i do it à plusieurs reprises just to see if they can catch my wiles. Ah, but they praise me instead, my tireless dedication and my ever so fierce leaderhsip! Can you beleive it, cher monsieur?

And i never jump in the cold water to rescue my soul. For i soar as i drown. Fortunately! "

LOL. That was me confiding in Clamence, giving in to his hidden invitation, at the same time defying his premise altogether. It's dubious, you see.

It's a treat indeed, indulgence rather, to see things in such dual light. From harmony springs forth chaos, the desire to enslave turns into a yearning for submission, truth, "the colossal bore" metamorphoses into lies ever so interesting. Ah, i should have known, the hyphen!
Judge-penitent as he claimed. A mon avis, it's all in those two words, and the hyphen that connects that contradiction.

It's all very clear now. As i said, i have been had. But that was then. And by a master plotter. I feel no shame. Really!